So it seems a rather big chapter of my life is coming to a close. Eric and I are getting a divorce. It wasn't that we hated each other or never want to see each other or anything like that, we've just grown too far apart for us to really be happy. Eric is not the same guy that I fell in love with 11 years ago. We understand that and, looking ahead, we decided it would be best if we weren't together anymore. It's bittersweet, really. We will remain friends though and have joint custody of Duder. It's weird that everything is so amicable. We're going to try to keep it as friendly as possible and I hope it stays that way. I will be moving in with my parents for a while after Eric's established with a full-time job, as I don't think it would be fair if I left him high and dry to fend for himself while I take off. When I'm with my parents, I'll be working on paying down debt and perhaps going back to school. We're in the process of separating stuff in the house. So far I have two boxes packed. I still have to get my clothes together, craft stuff, and some other household things. I am going to start moving some of my things over to my parents here in the next few weeks. I'll also be taking our cat, Lou Lou. Both Eric and I will trade off with Nathan, doing every other week and alternating holidays. For his birthday, we're both going to try to get together and celebrate it together. It's going to be a big change, difficult at first, but, in the end, I believe it's going to be for the better. Who knew my 30th year would bring about so many changes.

So my latest plan, getting overall healthier. It's been almost two weeks now, and I must say, an adjustment in my medication and an almost separation of my marriage really put things in to perspective. I realized that I need to start living healthier, happier, and be more honest, but at the same time, proud of, myself.

I started this beginner 5K program on RunKeeper. It's a neat app that not only tracks running, but walking, hiking, cycling, pretty much anything that you can do distance with, it tracks. It's pretty awesome.

Well, I'm on like, week two day 4 or 3, and I'm having a hell of a time not cardio wise, but with my lower legs. Nice thing about the program, after each workout, you can do a little entry about how it went. Well, here was today...

You know, these stupid shin splints and calf pain are  ultimately going to make this extremely difficult. I can't make it very far without excruciating pain! So, most of my workout today was brisk walking. Which, I suppose I AM getting cardio in and strengthening somewhat, but, I want to be able to at least jog 1.5 miles without feeling like my legs are shattering.

Essentially, it's not going exactly as planned. I was thinking I was going to be progressing a little bit more with jogging since I started. I mean, I guess cardiovascular-wise I'm getting better, but without the ability to actually, well, jog without feeling like my legs are breaking. I'm sure I will get there. I just have to stay persistent, not give up, and see that overall, I am doing better than I was.